Words reflecting what I feel

Today's post and the last post are both more of a vaguer type, that not necessarily every reader (if any) understands. When I started my blog, I was thinking of both this type and the one I have been using before. I wanted to give them different colors to separate them, but I never got about doing that. Maybe I will some time later, but until that moment you will have to do with me telling what kind it is.
(by the way I don't plan on using only this type from now on, I will be using whatever type suits the moment)

Three times in fifteen minutes,
but still there is this cloud.
This cloud that forbids,
this clouds that blocks.
This cloud, however cannot block my feelings,
which I sometimes hope it would.
It's good not to be lost,
to still have your feelings.
It's better, though, to move on
and I wish I could.

"Mono/Dia"logue

Just some random thought of mine:

"I told myself to stop, but I'm not listening"
"Why do I not stop, if I tell myself to do so?"
"I don't know, ask me, I should know"
"Do I know where I am?"
"I'm here"
"So... why were you not listening to yourself when you were told to stop?"
"I guess it was just really hard to stop, the chips were way too tasty"
"Please go say sorry to myself, I really need to make this up with me"
"Okey, I will. By the way, I will stop right now as well"
"That's good of me. So did I stop?"
"Yeah, I did. Did I also tell myself to say sorry to me? I spontaneously did"
"I did, good of me that I did listen this time and that I went to say sorry at once"
"True, true, but do I know why I did not listen?"
"The chips were too tasty"

(hint: it's really three conversation between three people (B - C, C - A, C- B) that are all me. If you want to decipher it, go ahead. If you don't, just don't even try.)

Jotihunt

I am currently at the scouts. It's that one weekend in the year we have internet at scouting. Okey, it's supposed to stay for the rest of the year this time, but we have got two lines right now and we have about 20 computers running at the moment. For those who have ever been with the scouts, you have probably heard of the joti. For those who haven't, it's the jamboree on the internet (and jota, jamboree on the air, is on the same day). The joti/jota is an international day on which a lot of scouts use the internet or radios to communicate, as if all together.
Here in Bennekom the joti basically means playing the jotihunt, an amazing game that is one of the best moments of the year for many (amongst which I am as well). Running about 20 computers we are doing a game where you get hints on the internet, with which you have to five different groups as many times as possible (once each hour max). In the mean time you get random assignments to do.
Anyway, it's going better than ever before and we are having spare time (I am typing this :P). We will just have to wait for the next hint, but there is none yet. We have spotted two groups and did all the extra assignments were done. If I have more time left I might keep you readers (which probably still are none) updated.

Lacking removal and rotating triangles

Sorry I have not posted for a week or so... while I said I would.

I got my internet fixed, which meant I had things to do there, communities to visit again.
Last Sunday I went to the Lorwyn (Magic: The Gathering) prerelease. It's an amazingly good set. I really just do not understand how Wizards can say "We want the quality raised" and then not just produce a single good set, but keep following one good set up with another. But I am glad they are pulling it off. I had a strange pool (very little removal and a high number of bombs) and I focused on winning, not on winning before the opponent did. The results reflected that deck - I won the first two against not-so-strong opponents and utterly failed against in my other three matches, which were against some of the stronger players (number 1, 2 and three actually :P). I ended up seventh of fourteen. I hope I will do better saturday in the release tournament :D.

Besides that I have been working on my GameEngine project, using the tutorials from Marek-Knows.com. I have set up openGL now and I have it rotate a triangle on the screen. And all of this I did cross-platform (unlike Marek). I am really putting my own stamp on my version of the engine. Now I just have to make sure it can actually render something useful.

That was basically all I wanted to tell you right now. Stay tuned and I might post again soon :P.

Writing this from my (new) home

New is a relative word, but I am not at my parent's house and I am writing this... (for the record, I am not at school or any other place I don't live either and I am not using the supervisors' internet connection)... I have my own internet connection.
Ah well... own isn't really true, I am using someone else's, but with my own computer all the same. So, now the only thing I have to do is make sure I do not get in the way of the network's owner (if I don't get in his way, he won't notice and he has no reason to mind me being here).

I am still in a temporary setup (my pc is on my desk, while my monitor, mouse and keyboard are on the floor), but I will just have to find out how to set it up in such a manner that it's convenient AND I do have some connectivity. Anyway, see you all later as I am now going to find a place for everything. My next post will include all the trouble I went through to get it like it is now ;)